i'm not applying for the job. i know what conventional wisdom, my mom and chelsea's mom (Hi Cheryl!) would say. but it feels wrong and therefore it is. i'm not willing to ignore the fact that bayer is an evil company for the sake of security or material comfort. i will admit to there being a certain amount of privilege involved in me being able to say that since i really don't have anything to lose. i believe that most of the people around me would make the same decision if they felt like they had a choice. i'm lucky enough to be able to say no. i know we're all supposed to just do what we need to, brave unhappiness and otherwise icky feelings to maintain our credit ratings or whatever. i'm not willing to accept those as acceptable justifications for being a part of something i know is wrong.
i'm going to lose this job at some point and i am totally ok with that. i'm going to get out of the pharmaceutical industry and never look back. an argument could be made that they save lives. a lot of the time they do. but they don't do it for free. matter of fact they will drain you of everything you have for the privilege of continuing to live. and even if you accept that they save lives, ignoring the rabid capitalism, you also have to accept the fact that many of them have killed people. numerous companies, including bayer have knowingly put people at risk of death, covered up the risk and maximized profits while delaying regulatory intervention. it's kind of a pattern within the industry.
our society operates on the principle of division of labor. from a pragmatic standpoint ultimately there need to be people working to make drugs. i'll concede that. i just don't want to be one of them anymore.
this feels pretty sweet.
