tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49955692897340660402024-03-05T05:53:15.391-08:00smoking in the shower"i've realized that everytime you're naked or near naked, i have a camera" - jthanPonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comBlogger166125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-72725578789541350612009-08-17T13:12:00.000-07:002009-08-17T13:13:26.584-07:00what i'm doing now<a href="http://wordoftheduh.blogspot.com/">this is the new blog</a>.<br /><br />enjoy.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-84399948304061849192009-08-06T11:02:00.000-07:002009-08-06T11:14:33.730-07:00"i've got a sinking suspicion that this feels like revenge"this is the last post of smoking in the shower.<br /><br />it's been fun spilling my guts to all you fine folks but all things must come to an end.<br /><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">i'm</span> starting a new project soon.<br /><br />if i want you to know about it, you will (including you <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">cheryl</span>).<br /><br />in the meantime keep your eyes on <a href="http://crappypaintart.blogspot.com/"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">crappypaintart</span></a>.<br /><br />if you read my blog to periodically check in on me or my mental state, you could always just call or email. i prefer email. <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">i'm</span> not a 'phone talker' and it lets me respond when i want to. texts are <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">ok</span> too.<br /><br />thanks for the comments.<br /><br />thanks for not calling the mental health authorities.<br /><br />thanks for the laughs.<br /><br />peace out.<br /><br />pony.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-61089510000243443062009-08-03T10:42:00.000-07:002009-08-03T11:06:57.288-07:00monday is the best day for backslidingi should admit the constant nausea isn't solely caused by the summertime pickling adventure. it doesn't always feel good to wake up alone but the consequences of having someone there are too severe. it's too scary. i don't want the burden. and what kind of person wants to watch this anyways? there's a tragic beauty to all of it; but even i get sick of me and what i've created. i too like me more when i'm drunk, maybe i should go back to self-loathing. it might be healthier. i can't remember the last time i cried. someone had to remind me of it. i laughed it off. it sounds so pedestrian when someone else reads it back to you. so standard. i do it for a reason. we all do. dfw reminded me that i'm not at the center of the universe. it didn't really make me feel better. i know what happens if this doesn't stop. it's part of how i ended up here. the people who hurt me the most are the ones who couldn't or wouldn't stick around to see how it ends. can't say i blame them. <br /><br />not anymore.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-16933061844479926772009-08-02T19:11:00.001-07:002009-08-02T19:11:07.461-07:00little buddy/big buddy<style type="text/css">.flickr-photo { border: solid 2px #000000; }.flickr-yourcomment { }.flickr-frame { text-align: left; padding: 3px; }.flickr-caption { font-size: 0.8em; margin-top: 0px; }</style><div class="flickr-frame"> <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/22696172@N03/3755307897/" title="photo sharing"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3430/3755307897_0c37c8b6b5.jpg" class="flickr-photo" alt="" /></a><br /> <span class="flickr-caption"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/22696172@N03/3755307897/">little buddy/big buddy</a>, originally uploaded by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/people/22696172@N03/">Flaming Pony</a>.</span></div> <p class="flickr-yourcomment"> i love this picture and i love you. <br /><br />godspeed.</p>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-83314575437915982942009-07-31T14:42:00.000-07:002009-07-31T15:48:51.469-07:00platonic love"As we exchanged tight hugs and maudlin sentiments last night, _______ charged me with the task of taking care of you. You woke up this morning on top of a cheeseburger and ate Fred Meyer sushi for lunch. So far I am doing a terrible job." - <em>anonymous</em>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-83960197378706288422009-07-29T17:53:00.000-07:002009-07-29T17:56:27.036-07:00if you believe in jesus<a href="http://www.komonews.com/news/local/51988007.html">would you please ask him to turn down the heat on seattle</a>? just 5 degrees. PLEASE?!?!?Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-59527629368021976072009-07-27T07:57:00.001-07:002009-07-27T07:57:21.379-07:00fucking a right<style type="text/css">.flickr-photo { border: solid 2px #000000; }.flickr-yourcomment { }.flickr-frame { text-align: left; padding: 3px; }.flickr-caption { font-size: 0.8em; margin-top: 0px; }</style><div class="flickr-frame"> <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/22696172@N03/3755296297/" title="photo sharing"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3005/3755296297_f8fa312772.jpg" class="flickr-photo" alt="" /></a><br /> <span class="flickr-caption"><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/22696172@N03/3755296297/">fucking a right</a>, originally uploaded by <a href="http://www.flickr.com/people/22696172@N03/">Flaming Pony</a>.</span></div> <p class="flickr-yourcomment"> everything is and everything will be</p>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-78530562177210402162009-07-24T11:00:00.000-07:002009-07-24T11:21:10.392-07:00i take it all backsetbacks are always temporary<br /><br />barriers can be broken<br /><br />scrapes scab over<br /><br />wounds heal<br /><br />people can be redeemed<br /><br />slights can be forgiven<br /><br />days always end<br /><br />disappointed relieved<br /><br />the good can be seen<br /><br />the bad can be reckoned with<br /><br />as long as we're all together<br /><br />we can do anything<br /><br />everything will be okay<br /><br />totally awesome<br /><br />wicked sweetPonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-86727052524663632382009-07-24T09:33:00.001-07:002009-07-24T11:20:36.417-07:00Solution Preparation for Benzyl Alcohol Peroxide AssayDearest Jesus-<br /><br />Get me the fuck out of here.<br /><br />PonyPonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-73619486041357182612009-07-21T14:14:00.000-07:002009-07-21T14:23:02.529-07:00i'm going back to friendster?so last night i'm eating dinner with my friend. i get a facebook friend request on my phone. i glance over it. i see the name "jackie". the only jackie i can think of was a kindly, talkative and somewhat cute friend i made in a bar on sunday. but we only talked for like 5 minutes before i rushed out, so how the hell did she find me on the interwebs?<br /><br />i fully open the message and realize i know another person named jackie. my grandma. my grandma is on facebook.<br /><br />goddamn it.<br /><br />i suppose this is my punishment for not calling her often enough.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-79835320474199138752009-07-20T14:40:00.000-07:002009-07-20T14:50:34.111-07:00dropping the familial soapi tried to write him a letter. i don't know what to say.<br /><br />"congrats on being the first one in the family to go to jail. hope youre enjoying the pruno. see you in october. p.s. don't be afraid to poop yourself if you feel it's necessary."<br /><br />seems a little crass.<br /><br />better to say nothing at all.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-63930047314531421662009-07-20T12:39:00.000-07:002009-07-20T12:55:55.743-07:00SNAFUi don't even know where to begin. any recap would contain one glaring omission and the omitted subject is really the only thing worth talking about. but we can't - not here.<br /><br />i want to go to sleep.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-15731068393088471762009-07-14T14:23:00.000-07:002009-07-14T14:25:19.992-07:00http://everythingwillbeokay.com/youll_get_over_it/promise.htmli've resigned myself to the fact that a certain aspect of my life will always be one massive clusterfuck.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-77082826564526681162009-07-13T08:33:00.000-07:002009-07-13T09:05:29.378-07:00they've come to snuff the rooster<ul><li>it feels good to be naked outside.</li><li>nudist resorts are about 2/3 dudes (nudists apparently blame this on the pressures society put on women) .</li><li>you don't really want to look at 97% of the people.</li><li>you'll see more cocks in one day than you've seen in your entire life. well, some of you will.</li><li>i was amazed at the diversity of male gentalia and how many dudes had really small ones and how few dudes had really big ones. i really did feel bad for them.</li><li>i helped set the guinness world record for largest simultaneous skinny dip. </li><li>realized that "i am okay, just as i am".</li></ul>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-89015027573972167962009-07-10T10:46:00.001-07:002009-07-10T10:46:51.524-07:00<p align="center"><a href="http://cyborg.namedecoder.com"><img src="http://cyborg.namedecoder.com/webimages/handyvac-PONY+CARL.png" width="240" height="180" alt="Person Optimized for Nocturnal Yelling, Ceaseless Assassination and Rational Learning" border="0" /></a><br />get/'>http://cyborg.namedecoder.com"><small>Get Your Cyborg Name</small></p>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-28473828471603040372009-07-08T16:19:00.000-07:002009-07-08T16:21:42.827-07:00virgin white noise<a href="http://www.salon.com/politics/war_room/2009/07/08/qotd/index.html?source=video&aim=/politics/war_room">you gotta be fucking kidding me....</a>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-12641514345993196832009-07-08T09:04:00.001-07:002009-07-08T09:34:12.705-07:00off-white noise<ul><li>i've noticed a disturbing trend in colloquialisms recently; chillax, natch or totes - not okay! this is a recurring problem. spec-tac is acceptable. </li><li>summer is exhausting.</li><li><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/22696172@N03/sets/72157620904572471/">portland</a> is spec-tac.</li><li>for some reason there are <a href="http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/7/74/Sodavspopvscoke.png">random counties in nebraska, colorado and utah </a>where, going against the state trend, the term "soda" is preferable to "pop".</li><li>i'm trying to find a new job. i'm not trying very hard. trying is difficult. </li><li>i've named my stomach 'howard'. shut the fuck up howard!</li><li>seriously thinking about moving to <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Athens,_ga">athens</a>. mainly because theo hilton once told an entire audience they should and i happened to be in that audience. that's practically an invitation for me to go sleep on his couch. </li><li>i still haven't decided if this is actually worth posting. </li></ul>Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-56933485465388365462009-07-01T11:11:00.000-07:002009-07-01T11:12:36.724-07:00microscoffedi am dreaming of a life that forever keeps me at arms length from powerpoint presentationsPonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-85737654355932992072009-06-30T13:35:00.000-07:002009-06-30T13:36:06.857-07:00just wonderinghow many dead american celebrities does it take to de-rail an iranian revolution?Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-15889807437809950552009-06-29T11:11:00.000-07:002009-06-29T11:13:57.992-07:00very superstitiousit's impossible to make wishes if you have no idea what you want.<br /><br />the chamomile tea isn't settling a damn thing.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-704507771230269262009-06-25T08:30:00.000-07:002009-06-25T09:18:36.779-07:00being poor is pretty awesome sometimesi'm not applying for the job. i know what conventional wisdom, my mom and chelsea's mom (Hi Cheryl!) would say. but it feels wrong and therefore it is. i'm not willing to ignore the fact that <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bayer#Controversies">bayer is an evil company</a> for the sake of security or material comfort. i will admit to there being a certain amount of privilege involved in me being able to say that since i really don't have anything to lose. i believe that most of the people around me would make the same decision if they felt like they had a choice. i'm lucky enough to be able to say no. i know we're all supposed to just do what we need to, brave unhappiness and otherwise icky feelings to maintain our credit ratings or whatever. i'm not willing to accept those as acceptable justifications for being a part of something i know is wrong.<br /><br />i'm going to lose this job at some point and i am totally ok with that. i'm going to get out of the pharmaceutical industry and never look back. an argument could be made that they save lives. a lot of the time they do. but they don't do it for free. matter of fact they will drain you of everything you have for the privilege of continuing to live. and even if you accept that they save lives, ignoring the rabid capitalism, you also have to accept the fact that many of them have killed people. numerous companies, including bayer have knowingly put people at risk of death, covered up the risk and maximized profits while delaying regulatory intervention. it's kind of a pattern within the industry.<br /><br />our society operates on the principle of division of labor. from a pragmatic standpoint ultimately there need to be people working to make drugs. i'll concede that. i just don't want to be one of them anymore.<br /><br />this feels pretty sweet.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-18360445243492384612009-06-24T07:25:00.001-07:002009-06-24T07:25:51.495-07:00being an adultis dumbPonyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-20643154546506946722009-06-23T12:54:00.000-07:002009-06-23T12:57:06.257-07:00icing on the cakei think the only thing that could make my life better than it is right now would be to lose my job.<br /><br />one can hope.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-71695942733034365632009-06-22T12:57:00.000-07:002009-06-22T13:14:49.357-07:00bullet points feel better when they come out of a gun<div> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_hKju7ZX15oZ93_f_4YKXw54LWpSQ_MIbYEMiEQCEtCM6TNFGJomc6S1eZVtFcjOH6RlwhTWtV5ZqdUUaUL_wLE4bLGzxSM7xzk96faVIb8tGswNh1Doxt77GJNZWHbzVz942PBDEcMU/s1600-h/IMG00153.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350244467386455442" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg_hKju7ZX15oZ93_f_4YKXw54LWpSQ_MIbYEMiEQCEtCM6TNFGJomc6S1eZVtFcjOH6RlwhTWtV5ZqdUUaUL_wLE4bLGzxSM7xzk96faVIb8tGswNh1Doxt77GJNZWHbzVz942PBDEcMU/s400/IMG00153.jpg" border="0" /></a> <div><ul><li>today was the first time when extra value detracted me from making a purchase. they were even on sale. but something about getting the 20% extra that i didn't want dissuaded me.</li><li>there's an opening in my house. interested? <a href="http://seattle.craigslist.org/see/roo/1231156754.html">http://seattle.craigslist.org/see/roo/1231156754.html</a></li><li>solstice summary: tons of nakedness, 2 bottles of $4 wine, 2 tecate tallboys, 1 hottub, 3 shirtless party crashers, 4 underage girls, an untold number of stolen beers, a non-descript amount of canadian whiskey, 1 neil diamond cover band, 1 drunken nap at gas works, $18 in fried fair food. brought my camera but forgot my memory card and battery (you'll have to live with cameraphone pictures). all in all a wonderful day full of wonderful people just doing their thing. summer has arrived bitches. <img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350247030017658434" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 303px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXAiwsz7MRiKqoNBUvMYhCPk36H2AD8vRDi1ItuFILrp-lVbvW2d2-ZVTIIXjnzd-4y35Zx-DlAzIrDj6SKcHO37eKJm0WBBF8VjZxQkjprCtGTYylLg_YlqrNK5hAs0nNMaMqsGSMBuA/s400/IMG00149.jpg" border="0" /></li></ul></div></div><br /><p>yes, those people are naked.</p><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350247036794296082" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjzGqraER6HaFSadvHpmOSXcsLnjIY8y3kot8t1dKMM7ZBKfN_BroGunvOd18_b-vW50_z_fiRBSQpgUTyluVPHazICpx1S6ipyD7N6kSjq7CFjYblKAYetUhxHtglfaTRqD38ic4g0irQ/s400/IMG00152.jpg" border="0" /></p><p>note the bottle of wine.</p><p><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5350247033099992146" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 300px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKxPfObdiAQoHEb3lyR2B8ZxGt2R3qov5y77iLTkosIjjC5rgu8wKt_bkudtfBsXc8NAerKdHlNTfbEEh5COl0G4Y5QnbclcPS2nsv0NwOHWSQrS6GJ-4egqAKVHqoGgBQW87172p7UfA/s400/IMG00151.jpg" border="0" /></p>again with the wine.Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4995569289734066040.post-33613867407271836792009-06-17T09:48:00.001-07:002009-06-17T11:20:39.197-07:00wait a second, you're drinking again?Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: why didn't you warn me that Terminator sucked!<br /><br />Pony Carl: I didn't think it sucked. It just wasn't that great.<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: I dunno 'bout that. We were drinking and I thought that would have made it better, but no. Christian bale thought he was batman and the cg naked Arnold... come on! Crikey, crikey!<br /><br />Pony Carl: Point taken. It sucked.<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: are you going to CNight tonight<br /><br />Pony Carl: Probably not.<br /><br />Pony Carl: Meeting someone for coffee.<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: oh!?<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: I hope ____s there so I can yell at him<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: we're looking at his flickr and he was supposed to organize a rollerskating nighte<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: -e<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: that's not happened!<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: I think its because im a jew<br /><br />Pony Carl: And you people thought they'd be no consequences to killing Christ<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: I never knew the price would be this high though<br /><br />Fuzzy Zoeller's Enlarged Prostate: fml<br /><br />Pony Carl: "not only did my people spill the blood of the lamb, but now I can't roller skate. fml."Ponyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16590783620478526184noreply@blogger.com